Lately I really stressed over a lot of things, work, money and etc.... I also trying my best to behave normally but overtime I really felt I can't take it anymore and cry silently. People might think it a small matter and can be solve... But the waiting time to solve the problem really draining my energy and life away. I even thought of ending everything here and now. I feel like leaving everything behind and just find a place to hide. However, because of my mom and I don't have the courage to do so. I did thought of ending my life but I know it will cause other people pain. I rather stay alive but can I just leave the society of working and thinking about money? I really hope I have the saving to leave work and travel but it seems unrealistic to me especially I do not have that sort of support. When I see people go travel, I really jealous and think how the got the money to do so? Where they found the time? Seriously how to make myself feel better... I really don't know. I am trying but it gotten exhausting......
